These past couple of days have been pretty rough. When I start going through a drift- it's hard to get out. The only way of getting out of it is through full and devoted prayer. I tried, but it just wasn't seeming to work. I felt so far away from the Lord and from His love. I felt unworthy when someone asked me if they could be praying for me. I felt useless and unwanted. It wasn't a good feeling at all. I realized I was trying to fill my cup up with so many Godly things like podcasts, praying, reading, reading reading and reading! It got to the point where everything I was doing was going in one ear... And you know the rest. I was just upset and I needed OUT of the mess. The early morning devo's seemed to have become simply a habit- and I was told by a friend to not make it like a "chore" but a lifestyle, and it hit me that really this is not just a religion, but a whole entire lifestyle! And a great one at that. Last night at church the lesson was on "distractions." At first I was like well yeah we all have a lot of distractions. But then I was like wow, I am going through a big distraction right now, I need this! I learned that if you let the distraction come over you- you will cease to learn, cease to succeed, cease to live! That didn't sound good to me so I kicked this two day distraction in the butt, and this morning I had one of the best times with the Lord.. EVER! Here's a little bit of what I learned..
Our Lords exhortation (or arguments/agreements) is to be generous in our behavior toward everyone.
"If we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another." (1 John 1:7) even to those who we have no affection toward!
If you show others what God has showed you- He will give you plenty of real like opportunities to prove whether or not you are "Perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect." (Matthew 5:48)
And my favorite part of the devo was when it said,
"And when we come in contact with things that create confusion and a flurry of activity, we find to our own amazement that we have the power to stay wonderfully poised even in the center of it all."
That stood out to me so much because it seemed like God was telling me exactly that- that even when I go through distractions I don't need to worry because we are so wonderfully poised because of God's wonderful grace!
And then I'm reminded of this:
"Do not worry. Learn to pray about everything. Give thanks to God as you ask him for what you need. The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:6-7
After I prayed that God would pull me out of this drift I was brought extreme comfort by Him. I have never felt this so affectively before, and God is really teaching me now that I don't need to worry, because of the power of prayer and His wonderful, wonderful grace.
